Beautifully written. I can relate to this. I came from a complicated childhood, the moment I started earning, I wanted to go away. And since that day, I am running towards something I wonder if I will ever reach. It's like I am always in transition. Every time I rent an apartment I rent it for 3 months, thinking I am gonna move. It's been 3+ years I am in one, and still don't feel stable in my head. I would like to move to a different country, thinking that I will feel stable, calm, cosy & home there. Since I started getting myself together, lately I figured, it's my mind. But I don't know whether I will be completely out of this feeling. It's tiring. Thanks for sharing.